September 27, 2020 (Post #51)
(From Journal #5: April 20, 2006)
I watched a great teaching yesterday and the woman said something that hit me right between the eyes: “Fear is an emotional response to unbelief.”
Unbelief is actually a spiritual thing that produces a physical, natural response: fear! When fear attacks, I pray You will help me check myself, and let You show me any areas of unbelief. For instance, this thing about my heart having some weird symptoms has caused fear. I know that fear is not of You. The enemy uses fear to fuel unbelief. Wow! We’re on to him, Lord.
I also see another way that I open myself up for the enemy to attack me with fear. It’s been several days since I’ve been in my journal. I have missed You and I know You didn’t go anywhere… I traveled to see my family and have been busy and distracted. In other words, I didn’t keep my time in prayer and in the Word as my top priority. I threw up some hurried verbal prayers, but I have missed my deep written prayers and conversations with you. They’re a record of our relationship and are priceless.
Oh Jesus, I cannot live and function without You. I see what happens to me after about three days and it’s not good. It affects my temperament and I become impatient with others rather than walking in love. I catch myself grumbling and complaining rather than having a heart of joy, peace and gratitude. Forgive me.
You are my rock, my source of everything. You are faithful when I am not. I thank You for never leaving me nor forsaking me.
2 Timothy 1:7: For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
1 Peter 5:7-8: …casting all your anxiety upon Him, for He cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith…
Psalm 91:1-2: He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”