I Know What I Heard!
November 24, 2019 (Post #18)
(From Journal #1: February 26, 2005)
I saw the doctor yesterday and my bone marrow is clear! Praise You, Lord! We went over treatment options. We’re going to do an immunotherapy treatment called Rituxan. I am so grateful not to do hard chemo and radiation! I prayed for the doctor to have Solomon-like wisdom and I trust You are working through him. I will take this treatment in faith. There isn’t much data since it’s a new concept to take this drug alone, without chemo. God’s data is perfect and I trust You, Lord.
The most amazing thing happened! As I’ve been reading Your Word, Matthew 10:27 really spoke to me about the voice I heard whisper in my ear after surgery: “What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs.” And then, I started thinking about how Jacob wrestled with the angel of God and the angel touched his hip and wrenched it, leaving him with a limp. As I meditated on Matthew 10:27 and this story of Jacob, I asked You if this pain in my shoulder was a confirmation for me to KNOW that what I heard whispered in my ear was in fact an angel, in spite of the diagnosis I had received? I literally felt the warmth of the Holy Spirit in my body and then the pain was gone! Lord, thank You!
I’ve been condemning myself for even telling anyone about what I heard since the diagnosis came back as lymphoma, and that I am a “bad witness” for You. But You have given this amazing confirmation as to what I heard. I may not understand, but I still believe the lymph nodes are benign regardless of the diagnosis. I don’t care what anyone thinks. I believe You and only want Your Name to be glorified as healer.
Hebrews 10:23: “Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.”
Hebrews 11:1: “Now faith is the substance of what we hope for, the evidence of what we do not see.”
Isaiah 7:9: “…If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all.”
Psalm 119:116: “Uphold me according to Your Word, that I may live; and do not let me be ashamed of my hope.”