Don’t Own It!

January 10, 2020   (Post #23)

(From Journal #2:  March 30, 2005)

Yesterday I had my 4th and last treatment!  I’m praying for a clean scan in 6 weeks.

Lord, You’ve helped me realize something good I’ve not been doing.  I’m so grateful this instinctively was inside me, because You said in Luke 7:45, “…For out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.”  I’ve not once said that I “have” cancer.  I’ve stated that I’ve been “diagnosed” with cancer and/or “battling” cancer, but I have not taken ownership of cancer!  It doesn’t belong to me; You nailed it to the Cross!

The more that I meditate on this, the more I see how powerful this is in building our faith in Your Word and not our circumstance.  Romans 10:17 says “So then faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.”

If we speak words of ownership about sickness, then every time our ears hear those words, we build faith in the sickness, not the healing!  But when I use the terms “diagnosed” or “battling,” my ears hear that this is not acceptable and my faith is strengthened in the fact that sickness must leave!  I’m not allowing it to be part of my identity!

1 Peter 2:24  “…who Himself bore our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, having died to sins, might live for righteousness—by whose stripes you were healed.”

Proverbs 18:21 “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.”

Proverbs 12:14:  “A man will be satisfied with good by the fruit of his mouth…”

Proverbs 13:3  “He who guards his mouth preserves his life….”

Psalm 141:3  “Set a guard, O LORD, over my mouth; keep watch over the door of my lips.

4 responses to “Don’t Own It!”

  1. Candace Bradford says:

    I hope you don’t mind, but I am going to copy this and send to a friend of mine who called me today. I feel you sent it to me, because I need to share it with her.
    Judy is her name, we have spent hour upon hour together painting in my basement or in Plain Aire, in classes or in the public of downtown street.
    You see today she told me she had Kidney Cancer, but had surgery and the tumor was totally removed. She followed with the statement, the Doctor said, ‘it could return’. She is a Devout Catholic and has worked as the Church Secretary for years. I real feel she needs to see your message today! I hope you don’t mind.
    Love you,

    • Pearl says:

      Please share with anyone you think it might encourage! You’re welcome to share
      this one post, or direct her to the blog itself. She might enjoy following. Trust me,
      over 15 years, I get the constant battle. This is why I started this blog, to
      encourage others. We all have hardships, and we all know others with hardships.

  2. Mike Parker says:

    This is awesome to read! I became angry with God about my renal failure diagnosis. My mind was so focused one thought, Why me! I was mad, disappointed, frightened and being the man had been before. Then I remembered being taught to counsel patients with a new diagnosis of permanent vision about the stages of grief. I had counselled many patients with that knowledge, including multiple parents of blind infants. Grief was my problem and anger was a normal stage. I prayed for forgiveness and thanked God for the opportunity to pray His will would be done not mine. I told Him I was prepared to die if that was His plan and asked Him to comfort my family. Wow! Immediately I was relieved of my anger, doubts, fear and empowered to be a better person in every aspect of my life. What a simple prayer, I knew from childhood, but had to rediscover as a scared adult.

    • Pearl says:

      I totally get it, Mike! We get tired, angry, and scared. The whole point of this blog
      is baring my soul over 15 years of fighting cancer and all the emotions that go with it.
      Even people of great faith have times of struggle. My prayer is to share my story and hope
      others can relate and be encouraged to never give up and keep trusting the Lord no matter what.

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