March 21, 2020 (Post #32)
(From Journal #3: September 16, 2005)
Benign. How I’ve wrestled with this word ever since the surgery when I know I heard an angel whisper in my ear, “Don’t worry; it’s benign” and yet the biopsy diagnosed cancer? The “conflicting reports” have had me confused, but I still chose to trust what I heard and asked You to help me understand. And then today, You gave me clarity.
I was working on something in the office and all of a sudden in my spirit, I heard the Holy Spirit ask me, “What does benign mean?” My immediate response was “not cancerous.” And I heard, “Really? Look it up!” In obedience, I got out the dictionary and literally looked it up. And to my surprise:
- of kindly disposition, gracious
- showing or expressive of gentleness or kindness
- favorable; propitious
- clement; beneficial
- not malignant
Lord, “not cancerous or malignant” is the fifth definition! It also means a favorable condition, a good omen, a good outcome! The angel was telling me that things would turn out favorably and they have and continue to. There is no conflicting report. It is benign! Praise You, Jesus!
Matthew 10:27: “What I tell you in the dark, speak in the daylight; what is whispered in your ear, proclaim from the roofs.”
Psalm 5:3: In the morning, O Lord, You hear my voice; in the morning, I lay my requests before You and wait in expectation.